On Waiting

When you ask people what they are doing, they usually say they are doing a project, starting it, finishing it, or looking for one. I am in that exquisite state of "waiting", a pressurized promise of something to happen, it is out of my control, but I anticipate it any moment, and when it happens, my muscles, brain and bones have to respond, explode into action. Sonatine by the unbeatable Beat Takeshi is a great ode to waiting  where a gang waits by the beach -- pick on each other, invent silly games, distract oneself with some girl,  all with half a mind, half the focus, with no wants of days ending or beginning -- for the boss to call them to action, and they can go beat up on someone.